Song lyrics, "40 winks of courage" 2012
WOOLGATHERING
there will be no keeping it
like we saw it in
one of the movies
and were led into
like we were led into it
and it took over
this is
just one
of the things
I'm thinking of
like we saw it in one of the movies
and were led into
like we were led into it
and it took over us
look into your heart and say
there is no keeping it
probably it’s already gone
THE GOOSE HANGS HIGH
over felt
or over thought
live on coffee and hopes
shake me, find me something
that would make me feel
what am I missing?
I feel numb
(and) what have you discovered?
everything we touch
we ruin cause
we want the control and
knowing that
to fall asleep I play 4 in a row
and home now could be
anywhere I'd go
I feel numb
and what have you discovered?
LIKE IS
there is nothing I’d rather find
and work it out until its right
and work it out until it stays
what I like is you
what a beautiful love we lead
just as if it was meant to
be but there was a cloud of dust
colors faded could I trust myself
being undecided
it making sense
enough
enough!
what I like is you
HEAD OR TAIL
It's no good, unless it's real
it came to my attention
you use words of books you never read
end up back at start
what I said is already the past
the big city blinking
it worries me sometimes
that it slips by
so fast
THE LONGING
some time ago
I felt right on track
but I erased it now
by walking there and back
love
I want
to feel oblivion
not shivers
and slake
my longing for home
and you
despondent
love
in a dream it seems really easy
when the wear keeps you calm
you get lifted up by hope
and love
love
HYPER-CLUTTER
I was afraid to speak and at night
I'd lip sync what I had on my mind
I would
mistaken for a warm up
wasn't she an actress, well that's an act
and I would still be afraid in fact
I would
in my window my reflection at night
if you could read my lips I wouldn't feel so numb
or I would
LET IT SHINE
I waited on the night to fall upon the earth
I saw a blackened fire come up from the sand
just below the rock teetered on the edge
lies a distant fall that’s clear enough to see
and now I wait for you to come
come let it shine
so come let it shine
one more shadow falls upon this wicked life
just as rain that falls on the crooked tree
the withering of all the sorrows on the earth
just as tears that come from behind the bark
and now I wait for you to come
come let it shine
so come let it shine
I’m waiting for you by the riverside
so come let it shine
STRIKES, SLIPS AND FAULTS
what are we coming to I never stop to think
where the lines cave in we fall few and far in between
we are not the only ones who see our faults collide
giving out a light that fades and upsets all our eyes
should have seen it coming I could have kept my guard
reaching out to what I couldn't start
and I want it to be over
let it all slip into the night
in the darker nights that played beneath the days
I want to burry everything
going nowhere
with the early night things fall apart
a mood that grows inside and clutches hard
why didn't I confront everything?
seeing as I'm only led by the light I see
but waiting comes to nothing cause I no longer say
what words I strike up convey
and I want it to be over
let it all slip into the night
in the darker nights that played beneath the days
I want to burry everything
going nowhere
WHEELS AND ENGINES
I want to wake up with peace of mind
disconnection
no idea what to think or say
did I mention?
it's easy to fight with yourself
but you get no answers
so I just watched a nature series
about tigers
it's easy to miss the old
and fear the new
but now is now and how do I stay here
or even try to
it hurts me
I'm missing out
the wheels and engines
I can't be two places at the same time
I keep the headlights on
day and night
I'm calling you
but you're some place else
empty space
and I'm calling
SOMETHING TO FORGET
I've been dreaming all these years
to spend my days
so I can sleep at night
you try until you're sore
one day you wake up and
you know you’re no kid no more
it is true, you know it's true
it will drag you down and break your heart
there's a better life for you
why not be smart
i've been dreaming all these years
of safe and sound
limitations transcend
you played it right, that card
you know one day your dream
will tear you apart
it is true, you know it's true
it will drag you down and break your heart
there's a better life for you
you should know better than I
GOLDEN MEAN
a life of resilience and commitment to life
limitations, compromise
this is your reckoning with
the adult life
I’m looking for the golden mean
And oh how it frightens me
but where is the core?
where would the root be?
in people you know?
places you've been?
experiences you've had
maybe?
I’m looking for the golden mean
and oh how it frightens me
set out to understand
how to carry my fears
I’m looking for the golden mean
And oh how it frightens me
Below lyrics for "The Other Hand" (2010)
Widow Of Myself
I am a widow of myself
I put in boxes and archive
One day when all this is filed and organized
I will still do something that I really like
That chance is great
And will be given me
But will I have everything ready then?
Oh no, I'm given another
And it’s last this time
The chance is great I will use it right
I am a widow of myself
I put clothes and shoes in a bag
Take my drawings and old photos off the wall
Put them back in albums
And I think some more
Oh no, I'm given another
And its last this time
Oh no, I'm given another
The chance is great I will use it right
Oh no, I’m given another
And it’s last this time
Venus Untied
The last thing I remember
Before I hit the ground
Is when I last remembered
Is when I lost the time
Feelings warm that render
The Venus on my mind
But when I reassemble
I will lose the time
When I last surrendered
Feeling more untied
I don't even remember
When I lost the time/Cause I just lost the time
- Oh when at last I forgot the time -
The first years I remember
Venus at last untied
But never before her ascendance
Cause I just lost the time
Orange, Apple
I overlap with you
In an uneven way
Although I know the common ground
I seem to stray
I would like to stop my head
Processing everything you said
And then I'm back at start
And limp my way to you
I would like to stop my head
Processing everything you said
And then I'm back at start
And limp my way to you
I stay calm
And you pull the door to
I would like to stop my head
Processing everything you said
In an uneven way
Although I know the common ground
I seem to stray
I would like to stop my head
Processing everything you said
And then I'm back at start
And limp my way to you
I would like to stop my head
Processing everything you said
And then I'm back at start
And limp my way to you
I stay calm
And you pull the door to
I would like to stop my head
Processing everything you said
Devourer
Hope will devour
What is cutting through
Hour after hour
Falling through
The sky lit up
Storm and misty night
If it’s best to stop
Why can't I?
You press and you press but you can't fight it
Taping parts together
Something's cutting through
With what we can have
We make do
If I had the power
To fast track and back
I would really like to see
Where this will end up
You press and you press but you can't fight it
What I might have lost
Reach out for me
I wait for you
But you hold it in
Like it isn't you
And the day is long
I look into far
To the places
I cannot reach
Let love live
Let this be true
I plan ahead
But I have nothing
To rely on
And the day is gone
With my eyes closed
I feel it’s near
Let love live
I collected all I said
It still made sense to me
I confronted every place
To make it easier
Let love leave
Talk to me
Came to write you down those lines
I hope I can record my thoughts
In my head I search for reasons why
I am what I am and have become
Oh and then my head is like a jigsaw
Oh and then my head is like a jigsaw
I know you but I don't know you
You speak but I don't hear your voice
And I don't get to speak to you these days
So I head uptown to walk when I get lost
Talk to me through the night
Oh and when my head is like a jigsaw
Oh and when my heart is tired
Talk to me through the night
When you head up town with both feet off the ground
Talk to me through the night
Oh and when my head is like a jigsaw
Oh and when my heart is tired
Talk me through the night
When you weigh me down with both feet off the ground
I hope I can record my thoughts
In my head I search for reasons why
I am what I am and have become
Oh and then my head is like a jigsaw
Oh and then my head is like a jigsaw
I know you but I don't know you
You speak but I don't hear your voice
And I don't get to speak to you these days
So I head uptown to walk when I get lost
Talk to me through the night
Oh and when my head is like a jigsaw
Oh and when my heart is tired
Talk to me through the night
When you head up town with both feet off the ground
Talk to me through the night
Oh and when my head is like a jigsaw
Oh and when my heart is tired
Talk me through the night
When you weigh me down with both feet off the ground
Yes
Have or have I never dreamt the day would realize
I have not become what you were before
Have I given reason to erase or realize
I am what you were before
Never have I ever had to plainly realize
I have never lost the thread before
But never is the reason we refuse to realize
It is what you ignore what you were before
Papapapapa
Never is the reason we refuse to realize
It is what you ignore what you were before
Never have I ever had to plainly realize
I have never lost the thread before
Have I given reason to erase or realize
I am what you were before
Papapapapa
I have not become what you were before
Have I given reason to erase or realize
I am what you were before
Never have I ever had to plainly realize
I have never lost the thread before
But never is the reason we refuse to realize
It is what you ignore what you were before
Papapapapa
Never is the reason we refuse to realize
It is what you ignore what you were before
Never have I ever had to plainly realize
I have never lost the thread before
Have I given reason to erase or realize
I am what you were before
Papapapapa
What's the difference?
Your act is inclined
To never get by
I'll ask for divine time
You'll never regret
The things you have said
I'll ask for divine time
To never get by
I'll ask for divine time
You'll never regret
The things you have said
I'll ask for divine time
Resolve at Midnight
Take a bow
When you know it’s done
That's now because it's done
Straighten up
And go
What could ripen
In the month of December
But a thought
And it goes
Right bad
Under a crescent
I walked my friend
To get this off me
The so-called army of me my friend
To get this off me
Where is the sentence
When I need it
I wanted to tell you
I am such a lightweight
I feel the wine already
Where was I?
Oh where was I?
Under a crescent
I walked my friend
To get this off me
The so-called army of me my friend
To get this off me
Temporary Residence
Time will wear it down
Moving wear it down
But you hold it in your heart
Don't bother me
Ceaselessly
I don't feel bad at all
Going back to the place I know
Time will wear it down
Don't be scared what's lost you can bring it along
Cause you hold it in your heart
Don't bother me
Ceaselessly
I don't feel bad at all
Going back to the place I know
Moving wear it down
But you hold it in your heart
Don't bother me
Ceaselessly
I don't feel bad at all
Going back to the place I know
Time will wear it down
Don't be scared what's lost you can bring it along
Cause you hold it in your heart
Don't bother me
Ceaselessly
I don't feel bad at all
Going back to the place I know
The Visionary
I want to know the riddles in me
To realize where I want to go
They have no power over me
I want to rise to where I wanted to be
I'm following a vision now
Blind but following a vision now
I want to know the matters unknown
To realize where my love is sown
And let you know the riddles in me
To realize where I want to be
The head grows
The heart knows
The head beats
The rest meets
The head is old
The heart is cold
The head beats
The rest meets
I'm following a vision now
Blind but following a vision now
To realize where I want to go
They have no power over me
I want to rise to where I wanted to be
I'm following a vision now
Blind but following a vision now
I want to know the matters unknown
To realize where my love is sown
And let you know the riddles in me
To realize where I want to be
The head grows
The heart knows
The head beats
The rest meets
The head is old
The heart is cold
The head beats
The rest meets
I'm following a vision now
Blind but following a vision now
Wink and Cough andSigh
Morse code I don't know
I don't understand
All this knocking
And secret languaging
Pointing arrows and
Wink and cough and sigh
I would still prefer
Talking eye to eye
T-A-L-K-I-N-G
Talking eye to eye
Or a dress code
That's a code I know
But the message gets
Lost in translation
Only thing I read
Leo Da Vinci
If he'd live today
He'd wear Gucci
I don't understand
All this knocking
And secret languaging
Pointing arrows and
Wink and cough and sigh
I would still prefer
Talking eye to eye
T-A-L-K-I-N-G
Talking eye to eye
Or a dress code
That's a code I know
But the message gets
Lost in translation
Only thing I read
Leo Da Vinci
If he'd live today
He'd wear Gucci
The Other Hand
To come back is not to stay
Where left is right
But right is wrong
In the evening
We drink a lot
So we don't dream anymore
You are alone with your conscience
And what does your conscience say?
Why am I doing this?
A question which always
Brings something worthwhile
The most generous
Is to do what you want
You are alone with your conscience
And what does your conscience say?
You are alone with your conscience
And what does it say?